Forward Motion.

My future terrifies me, because it's not mine to make.

I guess free will means I could do whatever I want.

But, I choose God's will.

I choose His Way, because it's a billion times better than mine.

I think about majoring in elementary education and teaching at a school in Washington,

and I feel safe; almost like nothing can harm me.

Then I think about what my life would be and I see discontentment.

I see myself doing what I want to do.  What doesn't push me to the edge.

It's not what He wants.

What He wants sounds incredible, but it's sacrifice.

Sacrifice isn't easy.

I worry that I won't have a future husband that will want the same thing.

I worry that my kids will hate me, because they can't be like normal American kids.

I worry that my family will not support me.

I worry that I'll get killed for my belief in God.

I worry I won't suffice.

I worry I won't be strong enough.

Every day, I'm trying to cast my worries on God.

Only He can carry my burdens.