25 September 2010
one million & one.
I want 1,000,001 reasons to persuade you to believe what I believe. I want to believe that what I believe is 100% percent right & never waver from it. If only life were that simple. If only I were Billy Graham and I could inspire people to come to Christ in the masses. I truly have a mad desire for people to know God like I do. To be swept off their feet & head-over-heels in love. The problem is, I don't have 1,000,001 reasons to make you believe God is the Creator, all-powerful, all-knowing, forgiving, & full of love to pour out on His people. I know I'm one of those people & I want the people I come across to know that they are also. I know what I believe in my heart, but, truth be told, I wasn't one of those people who fought against religion. I wasn't forced to be a christian; it was my choice. So with knowing that, it didn't take theological facts to win me over. Some people need that. My issue is that I can't supply it. I can go on for hours about God's love, yet I can't even give you 10 reasons as to why I know God is the Way, Truth, & Life. This leads to my next issue. What college do I choose; The private, Christian college or the less expensive, public one? They both offer the major that I want and have the city lifestyle I love. I could probably work hard to receive full ride scholarships to both. Money is not the issue, and neither is staying close to home. The issue is a personal one. If I go to a Christian college, I'll most likely learn what I really have a desire to learn, but I'll be away from the people who I could be showing God's love & light to, who don't already know Him, if I were in a public college. This decision is weighing down my heart & I just started junior year. I have over a year to decide, but I start to feel nauseous at the thought of choosing a college. It's a lovely reassurance to know God has a plan, but who knows when he'll answer my prayer? Growing up is difficult.
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