Thanks-Giving.

Day 1) I'm thankful for a job where I get to do what I love, and spend my time giving kisses and playing peek-a-boo with the sweetest little girl I've ever met. Within the first day of knowing her, she stole my heart, and I don't think I'm getting it back anytime soon.

Day 2) I'm thankful for adventures, and beautiful Alabama. It's crazy how crossing over a border was just what I needed to feel uplifted. That, and a pep talk from a man I had just met were both enough to lift my spirits. Thank you Josh, for making me an awesome longboard, and for inspiring me to continue to follow my dreams.

Day 3) I'm thankful for lazy Saturdays, and not feeling a need to always be doing something.

Just Maybe.

Maybe you're looking at this situation the wrong way.

Wouldn't it just suck to build your life around someone, and then have them leave?

Or wake up one morning and realize they don't love you anymore?

Or realize that all the things you've sacrificed in your life for one person weren't necessary?

You had a purpose before he came along, and you still do.

This is really just a rant to say that maybe being alone at this time is the best thing that could have happened to you..

But what do I know.

Rescued

"You're not pathetic, just misplaced"

I just keep telling myself that.

It's not that I totally feel I belong there, it's just I know I don't belong here.

So I'm trying to work with that.

Living & Learning.

Where do I go from here?

The more serious it gets,

the more I realize how much of a typical girl I am.

And how much I'm running.

On the bright side, I do have a plan!

Have I mentioned?

That I hate waiting?

And that I really don't have a back up plan this time?

Except for maybe take the time off anyway, and escape to Washington, and just live in the forest. Or maybe go to Portland. Or India. 

I wish I could say I'm not scared, but I'm terrified.

5 more days.

People Help the People.

Sometimes, I wish I could take all my friends, and we could just go somewhere, maybe to a new planet, and create a new society where money doesn't exist, and people genuinely care about each other.

Obama can come too.

 

And all the good people. But they have to give up all their possessions. Except their clothes. They can keep those.

 

Is that what heaven is supposed to be like? Because that would be cool.

 

The way I kind of view Jesus is he loves everyone and if you love him back, he loves you extra. Enough to get you into heaven. That's probably not how most people would phrase it, but when you get down to the heart of the matter, it fits.

 

But I don't understand the praise thing. I try to be humble, and I think Jesus was all about that too.

 

Scratch that, I don't understand anything.

 

I just want people to care about other people, even when it doesn't benefit them.

 

Even if I'm the only one, I plan to do that.

Another Reason for Adoration.

I realized today that you don't try to solve my problems, and you definitely never belittle them.

 

You just listen, and are as "there" for me as anyone can be while also being 3000 miles away.

 

Thanks for that.