Made to love.

"Just don't give up trying to do what you really want to do. Where there is love and inspiration, I don't think you can go wrong."

A few days ago, I was talking to a mentor in my life about my hatred for P.E.  In all reality, my P.E. class  has every single stereotype you would find in a high school.  I've never seen myself as a stereotype, but as one to defy them.  I was the girl who wore all black one day and a frilly pink skirt the next.  I was the a smart cheerleader.  I was the girl most people expected to get pregnant before high school, because every piece of my family is broken.  I enjoy defying stereotyp,es but since being in that class, I've realized I'm one I never wanted to be; the hypocritical Christian.  Jesus hung out with the people I've been avoiding since I strived to make new friends in middle school and advance to the honors classes.  I don't see "those other kids" unless I'm walking through the halls or taking an elective that requires me to put up with them.  When I told my mentor how my heart broke for these students, his words were, "they don't want your pity."  And they don't.  If I honestly want to make a difference with the love of God, I have to love these people, not pity them.  Jesus didn't hang out with the prostitutes, tax collectors, and hypocrites because he pitied them.  He hung out with them because they were broken, and NO ONE BUT HIM could fix them.  All mankind is searching for something to believe in.  The kids I see on a daily basis fake a smile or act like they have everything under control, and I walk by, not knowing what's going on in their lives in the same way they don't know what's going on in mine.  I used to like that.  But now, I've been thrust out of my close group of intelligent, good, little Christians and thrown into a group of people who embody the oppsosite.  I've dreaded sixth period for the last two weeks, but I recently realized God presented this opportunity as a way to evolve; to serve, to share, to teach, to love.  I try not to miss the opportunities He gives, and I think I'll learn a lot about trust this second semester along with getting in shape.