The Physics of the Quest

"If you're brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting, which can be anything from your house to bitter, old resentments, and set out on a truth-seeking journey, either externally or internally, and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher and if you are prepared, most of all, to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself, then the truth will not be withheld from you."

-Eat Pray Love

10 Positives.

1. Getting texts from random numbers and then realizing that random number is actually the number of someone very dear to your heart.
2. Running your heart out.
3. Having people that care.
4. Guys that don't know what to do about crying teenage girls.
5. My homecoming date is awesome.
6. People have been listening more.
7. A coach that believes in me
8. Feeling peace.
9. Knowing that in a year, you could be home.
10. Making that homeward bound step happen.
BONUS:
-Happiness.

Everyday is a struggle.

Last December, one of my blog posts talked about getting into the Christmas spirit.

"I'm thankful I have parents that are together," said the 6 year old I love.

I'm terribly sorry it couldn't stay that way.

I hate it as much as you do.

I say it's good.

I say I didn't like my step-dad anyway.

I say I'm fine.

I do like my new life, I really do.

But I also miss everything the word family meant for the past 14 years of my life.

And I worry about Joey.

Divorce Sucks.

Especially the second time around.

Charles.

When I watch Community, I think of you.

You look so much like that one guy, it's incredible.

It makes me regret never telling you just how handsome and wonderful I thought you were.

Maybe that's why we're only given so many years on this earth.

Every second offers a chance to say what's on your mind, to say how you feel, and to change someones day, life, eternity for better or for worse.

So, I vow to say what's on my mind even if people aren't listening, or don't care, or think I'm weird for it. But only if its for the better. Or needs to be said for the better of me.

I will not be pushed around.

I will not be judged.

I will be the person I've always wanted to be.

What she couldn't do, I will.

Dillusion.

I felt I was blooming, because I felt accepted.

Then, I lost some stupid popularity contest for a plastic crown and a title that no one will remember, and I suddenly felt wilted. Or drowned.

Needless to say, I have a lot to learn.

And I am blooming. But, I can't bloom based on anyone's standards, but my own.

I'll always be the tall, blonde, gangly, awkward kid I was in the 7th grade, but I have people that love me for it.

That's a nice feeling.

Thanks for being one of them.

In Progress.

I'm blooming.

It's a wonderful feeling that I've never had before.

Quote of the day.

Life is not about the depth and quality of your blog.

It's about the quantity.

SO BLOG MORE PEOPLE!