Sending love across the country.

My grandma sent a care package full of stuff we left at her house, and some cookies.

 

She makes the best cookies.

You're repulsive.

And I don't think I ever want to hang out with you. Ever again.

 

 

Scumbag.

 

 

I miss you.

Micah,
There are all these things I want to talk to you about, but you're so far, and i just don't think phone conversations will cut it.

Most of all, I'm sorry we didn't get to say goodbye. You're one of my best friends, and I valued your honesty, even when it pissed me off, which wasn't that often.

And remember when we would eat ice cream and listen to music on Jacob's laptop? Or when you made me top ramen? Plus, that one time you gave me your sweatshirt, because I was freezing at that track meet. Haha, that was kind of uncomfortable, but I was a little bit warmer. Some of my best memories are with you. And your boy advice is always appreciated.

Don't let anyone bring you down this year.

I hope your decisions come easily, and that everything works out for the best.

I'll always consider you a little brother. <3

I love you, Micah.

Overboard.

There's no quote that fully captures how i feel about you, so I'm left searching for my own words.

 

And that's way more difficult than I thought.

 

I guess I'll just leave it at, I wouldn't want to change a thing, but my location.

 

Distance is rough, but you're worth it.

Everybody's having babies.

I've been thinking a lot about pregnancy and babies lately, and everyday I'm realizing more and more that it's not what I want.

I think pregnancy is beautiful and all, but I don't think I would feel any different about a baby if I was the one who brought it into this world or not.

If i had to choose, I think I'd prefer adoption, because if I don't feel any different about it, then why not take the route that improves the quality of life for someone else?



I know I'm still pretty young to be making decisions like these, and maybe I'll change my mind someday, but I'm feeling pretty confident about this one.

We've still got time.

"I just need to know that someone out there listens and understands and doesn't try to sleep with someone, even if they could have. I need to know these people exist."
-Stephen Chbosky   

No More Negative Nancy.

I've been such a downer lately, but I'm getting better.

Thanks for putting up with all of it.

I'm on the up & up.

I promise.

i hope.

I hate fighting.

Confrontation makes me sick to my stomach.
I just have to have people in my life who aren't going to hurt me, because I'd probably just take it.

I hate being passive.

It'd be nice....

..just to hear that my friends miss me as much as I miss them.

I'm sure they do, but they're probably busy living their wonderful lives where they go to college, and meet new people, and do exciting new things.

I hate being bitter.

There are no other friends like you.

I'm so lonely here.

I wish I had a friend I could listen to music with, or read quotes with, or ride my bike with, or lay under a tree with, or visit Frugal's with, or swim with, or play my guitar with, or facebook stalk people with, or walk dogs with, or do anything that people enjoy doing in the company of other people they love.

I miss you guys. So much.

Please remember me, happily.

I have a hard time putting in words what you mean to me.

This probably won't be the last blog I write about you, but I'll do my best to make this one worth your time.

This summer was one of the best I've ever had and that's mostly because of you. You're such an exciting person to spend time with, and I feel like we would have been best friends if we had met sometime as toddlers or children somewhere making mud pies or swinging on swings.

In a matter of weeks, you've become one of my closest friends, and my one and only thunder buddy.

I just hope I've been as special to you as you've been to me.

Thanks. For the listening, and the honesty, and the giggles.

And for everything in between.

Things I miss:

Everything.

I was following my heart..

And now I have absolutely nothing figured out.

I didn't realize how scary that was.

"I'm looking in on the good life I might be doomed never to find."