06 July 2014

Recovering Still.

You should know that when a stranger looks at you, they probably think you're quite lovely. 


They probably don't think you could stand to lose 10 pounds, or that your face would look better if your nose was straighter, or your hair was longer, or your lips were plumper. 

They probably don't notice those things. They probably notice the way your face lights up when you laugh, or how your nose crinkles when you smile, or how your hair shines in the sun.

We're way more critical of ourselves than anyone else is of is. And lately, my biggest goal has been to speak kindly to myself. 

Because I'm ready to believe the truth, and not the lies I've trained myself to think all the time. 

"You are altogether beautiful, my darling; There is no flaw in you."
-Song of Solomon 4:7

30 June 2014

Realizations in Dhaka, Bangladesh.

"It's not about me, and it's not about you. 

It's about glorifying a God that deserves to be praised. 

It's about a calling we can't run from. 

It's about being used to do every good work, for His Kingdom, and His righteousness. 

This is not about us. It's not about our pasts, and our mistakes, and our stories, but it's about the one He's writing, where we get so much more than a happy ending. 

We get a lifetime of loving people. 

We get gnarly places and beautiful, broken people.

We get orphans, and lots of them. 

And God said, "Here's the desires of your  heart, and all you've ever dreamed of, but you have to understand, it's not really all for you. This is more about people than you can comprehend right now, but one day, you will."'

Journal entry, April 13th, 2014.

I miss you. 

16 June 2014

Ulysses

"So tie me to the mass of this old ship, and point me home. 

Before I lose the one I love, before my chance is gone, 

I want to hold his hand in my own."

11 June 2014