Just Maybe.

Maybe you're looking at this situation the wrong way.

Wouldn't it just suck to build your life around someone, and then have them leave?

Or wake up one morning and realize they don't love you anymore?

Or realize that all the things you've sacrificed in your life for one person weren't necessary?

You had a purpose before he came along, and you still do.

This is really just a rant to say that maybe being alone at this time is the best thing that could have happened to you..

But what do I know.

Rescued

"You're not pathetic, just misplaced"

I just keep telling myself that.

It's not that I totally feel I belong there, it's just I know I don't belong here.

So I'm trying to work with that.

Living & Learning.

Where do I go from here?

The more serious it gets,

the more I realize how much of a typical girl I am.

And how much I'm running.

On the bright side, I do have a plan!

Have I mentioned?

That I hate waiting?

And that I really don't have a back up plan this time?

Except for maybe take the time off anyway, and escape to Washington, and just live in the forest. Or maybe go to Portland. Or India. 

I wish I could say I'm not scared, but I'm terrified.

5 more days.